Hello, thanks for using a little bit of your time reading this thread, I really hope you enjoy it cause I've made it with my whole heart, and I am going to explain to you what's most likely wrong with me, and why I've left so many times...
A little introduction for anyone who doesn't know me; my name is Oriol (yes it does sound like Oreo if you pronounce it in English), I am 16, and I live in Spain. My hobbies are basically studying, playing Minecraft and learning languages, I have a dog, Kira, and she's a Collie and I also have a turtle, Sydney that is completely adorable, oh and I am gay too.
What's been my contribution to the CubeCraft network?
Well, besides probably spending hundreds if not thousands of hours on the network, I worked for the CCG Translation Team as a Spanish translator, a job that I really enjoyed, but due to some drama, I decided to quit.
-From now on, this thread is gonna explain my reasons of why I quit the forums so many times, I am not trying to justify what I've done but rather apologise.-
So basically, this story starts in 2017, I was coursing 3rd of ESO (Secondary Obligated Education I believe is the translation, which is basically high school) and I was going through a lot and this is when I started to tryhard Minecraft a lot.
I was getting bullied at school, and it really felt bad.
So basically, I spent from July 2017 to January 2018 grinding on Blockwars 12 hours (ish) per day to get on the leaderboard, so I did.
But after that, some thoughts started to go on my mind, I joined the forums and I felt like I wanted to become a helper, I saw mods like Marieke or Younisco and I thought they were so cool and wanted to be like them...
I would say "so I did" but here's where the troubles started. It wasn't just an aim, it was an obsession, I wanted it, I really did, and I started to report anyone who swore, even in parties, my friends, I didn't care, I just wanted to reach the requirements to apply, and luckily get accepted. It was around august that year, and I already had removed an account, whose name was Oreowars, that I had put a lot of effort on, and made a ton of messages on the other games subforum, to make suggestion for block wars (I didn't know how to make suggestions in that time but I still applied for helper, lol...). I created another account, and it was pretty nice, I made some nice suggestions like adding a stats page on the forum's webpage, etc, but I felt extremely bad, I was so mean, my frustration on my own self corrupted me, and I thought that it was nice making fun of someone like Fliqa, who in that time wasn't exactly having a ton of fun (The drama on the forums was so intense) to get likes.
It was a pretty rubbish thing from me to do, so I decided to remove my account, with the hopes of people forgetting how to mean I was with someone, and start from 0.
In that new account tho, I wasn't mean at all. Indeed I had some drama, at first with Priley, and then with other people, and I wasn't exactly a role-model, but I still considered myself as a very good applicant, and so I applied consistently, and messaged Animal, the staff manager, for questions about helper requirements, and tips to improve.
Unfortunately, I didn't get accepted. But it was still going well, I had 1k likes on my account, and I thought everyone loved me, cause my status posts got a lot of attention. So I did really have fun with that account. Unfortunately, something happened this year, my parents divorced, I've gone through a mental breakdown since then. And due to this, and some other things like me not getting accepted as a helper I decided to remove my account and to be fair, I don't know if I should regret it at all.
After 2 weeks or so of removing my account, I decided to create this one. I knew people would make fun of me "oh yeah, it's that guy who's made 4 accounts already, let's make fun of him haha!" that's what I thought, and that really made me insecure.
And I was kinda wrong, sure there are some people who've been mean, and made fun of the number of times I've created new accounts.. but there are even more people who welcomed me back, and were nice to me either here or on discord. So overall, creating this new account wasn't as painful as I thought it'd be.
About apologizing, as you've seen in the title... I want to apologize, to everyone who my comments may have hurt. To everyone, who I've been mean, either here or on the forums. Cause even if I am not on my best moment, that doesn't justify being a bad person, or a mean person towards other people, and I do regret all the drama I've may have created.
After this, I want to say thank you if you've read all of this, and I want you to know, that I appreciate your support. Thanks to everyone, especially to Riley, a person who I met on the forums and I've grown to appreciate as a true friend who I can trust, always.
Thanks for reading (again) and bye! <3
A little introduction for anyone who doesn't know me; my name is Oriol (yes it does sound like Oreo if you pronounce it in English), I am 16, and I live in Spain. My hobbies are basically studying, playing Minecraft and learning languages, I have a dog, Kira, and she's a Collie and I also have a turtle, Sydney that is completely adorable, oh and I am gay too.
What's been my contribution to the CubeCraft network?
Well, besides probably spending hundreds if not thousands of hours on the network, I worked for the CCG Translation Team as a Spanish translator, a job that I really enjoyed, but due to some drama, I decided to quit.
-From now on, this thread is gonna explain my reasons of why I quit the forums so many times, I am not trying to justify what I've done but rather apologise.-
So basically, this story starts in 2017, I was coursing 3rd of ESO (Secondary Obligated Education I believe is the translation, which is basically high school) and I was going through a lot and this is when I started to tryhard Minecraft a lot.
I was getting bullied at school, and it really felt bad.
So basically, I spent from July 2017 to January 2018 grinding on Blockwars 12 hours (ish) per day to get on the leaderboard, so I did.
But after that, some thoughts started to go on my mind, I joined the forums and I felt like I wanted to become a helper, I saw mods like Marieke or Younisco and I thought they were so cool and wanted to be like them...
I would say "so I did" but here's where the troubles started. It wasn't just an aim, it was an obsession, I wanted it, I really did, and I started to report anyone who swore, even in parties, my friends, I didn't care, I just wanted to reach the requirements to apply, and luckily get accepted. It was around august that year, and I already had removed an account, whose name was Oreowars, that I had put a lot of effort on, and made a ton of messages on the other games subforum, to make suggestion for block wars (I didn't know how to make suggestions in that time but I still applied for helper, lol...). I created another account, and it was pretty nice, I made some nice suggestions like adding a stats page on the forum's webpage, etc, but I felt extremely bad, I was so mean, my frustration on my own self corrupted me, and I thought that it was nice making fun of someone like Fliqa, who in that time wasn't exactly having a ton of fun (The drama on the forums was so intense) to get likes.
It was a pretty rubbish thing from me to do, so I decided to remove my account, with the hopes of people forgetting how to mean I was with someone, and start from 0.
In that new account tho, I wasn't mean at all. Indeed I had some drama, at first with Priley, and then with other people, and I wasn't exactly a role-model, but I still considered myself as a very good applicant, and so I applied consistently, and messaged Animal, the staff manager, for questions about helper requirements, and tips to improve.
Unfortunately, I didn't get accepted. But it was still going well, I had 1k likes on my account, and I thought everyone loved me, cause my status posts got a lot of attention. So I did really have fun with that account. Unfortunately, something happened this year, my parents divorced, I've gone through a mental breakdown since then. And due to this, and some other things like me not getting accepted as a helper I decided to remove my account and to be fair, I don't know if I should regret it at all.
After 2 weeks or so of removing my account, I decided to create this one. I knew people would make fun of me "oh yeah, it's that guy who's made 4 accounts already, let's make fun of him haha!" that's what I thought, and that really made me insecure.
And I was kinda wrong, sure there are some people who've been mean, and made fun of the number of times I've created new accounts.. but there are even more people who welcomed me back, and were nice to me either here or on discord. So overall, creating this new account wasn't as painful as I thought it'd be.
About apologizing, as you've seen in the title... I want to apologize, to everyone who my comments may have hurt. To everyone, who I've been mean, either here or on the forums. Cause even if I am not on my best moment, that doesn't justify being a bad person, or a mean person towards other people, and I do regret all the drama I've may have created.
After this, I want to say thank you if you've read all of this, and I want you to know, that I appreciate your support. Thanks to everyone, especially to Riley, a person who I met on the forums and I've grown to appreciate as a true friend who I can trust, always.
Thanks for reading (again) and bye! <3
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