Sincere apologise (Re-introducing myself)

Discussion in 'Introductions' started by Oreoino, Dec 7, 2019.

  1. Oreoino

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    Hello, thanks for using a little bit of your time reading this thread, I really hope you enjoy it cause I've made it with my whole heart, and I am going to explain to you what's most likely wrong with me, and why I've left so many times...

    A little introduction for anyone who doesn't know me; my name is Oriol (yes it does sound like Oreo if you pronounce it in English), I am 16, and I live in Spain. My hobbies are basically studying, playing Minecraft and learning languages, I have a dog, Kira, and she's a Collie and I also have a turtle, Sydney that is completely adorable, oh and I am gay too.

    What's been my contribution to the CubeCraft network?

    Well, besides probably spending hundreds if not thousands of hours on the network, I worked for the CCG Translation Team as a Spanish translator, a job that I really enjoyed, but due to some drama, I decided to quit.

    -From now on, this thread is gonna explain my reasons of why I quit the forums so many times, I am not trying to justify what I've done but rather apologise.-

    So basically, this story starts in 2017, I was coursing 3rd of ESO (Secondary Obligated Education I believe is the translation, which is basically high school) and I was going through a lot and this is when I started to tryhard Minecraft a lot.
    I was getting bullied at school, and it really felt bad.
    So basically, I spent from July 2017 to January 2018 grinding on Blockwars 12 hours (ish) per day to get on the leaderboard, so I did.

    But after that, some thoughts started to go on my mind, I joined the forums and I felt like I wanted to become a helper, I saw mods like Marieke or Younisco and I thought they were so cool and wanted to be like them...
    I would say "so I did" but here's where the troubles started. It wasn't just an aim, it was an obsession, I wanted it, I really did, and I started to report anyone who swore, even in parties, my friends, I didn't care, I just wanted to reach the requirements to apply, and luckily get accepted. It was around august that year, and I already had removed an account, whose name was Oreowars, that I had put a lot of effort on, and made a ton of messages on the other games subforum, to make suggestion for block wars (I didn't know how to make suggestions in that time but I still applied for helper, lol...). I created another account, and it was pretty nice, I made some nice suggestions like adding a stats page on the forum's webpage, etc, but I felt extremely bad, I was so mean, my frustration on my own self corrupted me, and I thought that it was nice making fun of someone like Fliqa, who in that time wasn't exactly having a ton of fun (The drama on the forums was so intense) to get likes.
    It was a pretty rubbish thing from me to do, so I decided to remove my account, with the hopes of people forgetting how to mean I was with someone, and start from 0.

    In that new account tho, I wasn't mean at all. Indeed I had some drama, at first with Priley, and then with other people, and I wasn't exactly a role-model, but I still considered myself as a very good applicant, and so I applied consistently, and messaged Animal, the staff manager, for questions about helper requirements, and tips to improve.
    Unfortunately, I didn't get accepted. But it was still going well, I had 1k likes on my account, and I thought everyone loved me, cause my status posts got a lot of attention. So I did really have fun with that account. Unfortunately, something happened this year, my parents divorced, I've gone through a mental breakdown since then. And due to this, and some other things like me not getting accepted as a helper I decided to remove my account and to be fair, I don't know if I should regret it at all.

    After 2 weeks or so of removing my account, I decided to create this one. I knew people would make fun of me "oh yeah, it's that guy who's made 4 accounts already, let's make fun of him haha!" that's what I thought, and that really made me insecure.
    And I was kinda wrong, sure there are some people who've been mean, and made fun of the number of times I've created new accounts.. but there are even more people who welcomed me back, and were nice to me either here or on discord. So overall, creating this new account wasn't as painful as I thought it'd be.

    About apologizing, as you've seen in the title... I want to apologize, to everyone who my comments may have hurt. To everyone, who I've been mean, either here or on the forums. Cause even if I am not on my best moment, that doesn't justify being a bad person, or a mean person towards other people, and I do regret all the drama I've may have created.


    After this, I want to say thank you if you've read all of this, and I want you to know, that I appreciate your support. Thanks to everyone, especially to Riley, a person who I met on the forums and I've grown to appreciate as a true friend who I can trust, always.

    Thanks for reading (again) and bye! <3
     
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    I usually have drama with a lot of people too but I’m not gonna remove my account because of some random people on the internet.
    Really long explanation of yourself,nice to read.
    One tip which can prevent getting bullyed:
    Don’t tell people online your real life orientations because some people reeealy go crazy when they hear ,,something wrong” so yeah you can get bullyed by someone online
     
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    Wow, that Helper part is so relatable. When I joined the Forums in 2017, I didn't care about Helper or anything like that. I just came on the Forums to tell Mooofin (I thought he could fix it, lol) about a UHC bug. I spammed conversations with some others hoping they could fix the bug. I even made new conversations to thank Moderators for fixing the bug; even though they didn't fix it haha. I didn't know how the Forums worked, so instead of congratulating AnimalTamer1 and FluffyRoses for their promotion to Helper on their profiles, I made a conversation with them :p.
    Then I noticed people in the community who helped others, like Marieke, SrKlompenstein, and iCheeetah (@Ducky Jr ). I also noticed Moderators, and I kinda admired them. I wanted to be just like them, I wanted to be a Moderator aswell. I read the requirements and came to the conclusion that I only had to report 100 people and have 100 Forum messages (I was 13 at that moment, which was old enough to apply at the time). So I began to reply to suggestions with +1 and similar messages, so I could have 100 messages in no-time.
    I saw people like CommunistCactus and MagnificentSpam write essays as replies, but I couldn't write down more than two sentences. I did try to make my replies better, but since I couldn't even speak English properly, it didn't work out that well. I didn't meet the requirements, but I still applied for Helper. I didn't understand the questions, and I replied with one-sentenced answers. I obviously got denied. I didn't want to help others, I just wanted the rank, the perks, the fame, everything that would make me a cool guy. Through time I had some physical issues, which did help me in some ways. I realized that being a wannabe just for the benefits wouldn't work, I changed, became older, got into the community, blablabla.
    Right now, I seriously don't care if people call me a wannabe. They can call me a wannabe whenever they want, they might even be right. I don't care because I do what I actually enjoy. I do not really care about the rank anymore.

    Enough about me!

    I saw you in Discord and FFA a couple of times, but I haven't really talked to you. But you do seem like a nice guy to me.
    We actually have some stuff in common, especially the Helper part. You had some mental breakdowns, I had some physical breakdowns ;).
    I'd like to get to know you better, and I'm sure we'll get to talk to each other!

    P.S. If you ever need someone to talk to, or if you need some help, hit me up :p
     
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    I can kinda relate at the beginning of my "trying to become helper" part. It was so bad, really.

    But hello! I've seen you here for awhile and you seem very nice, let's have a talk sometime :) I'm sure we have some things in common we can talk about haha
     
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    The past is the past. I always love having those gay conversations with you about our crushes! You know you can tell me anything! <3
     
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    Welcome back Oreo! We’ve known each other for quite some time now, and honestly I’m glad you’re back and I hope this time you’re staying for good. Good luck in your journey to helper. See ya in BlockWars!

    Edit: “Leef” lel jk
     
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    Just cause of making fun of my pronunciation you're not getting my like NOOB
     
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    Nuuu, my internet points!
     
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