Today's the first day I had in years where I wasn't affected by a single negative event, while being positive and happy all the day. My massive headache definitely wasn't the most appealing but god I'd rather have all the physical pain than my emotional one. :)
A really valuable quote I learned from this:
"You cannot now believe that you will ever feel better. But this is not true. You are sure to be happy again. Knowing this, truly believing it, will make you less miserable now." - Abraham Lincoln
It's finally time to move on. :)
I reached out to someone out of desperation, talked my heart out and was able to get help for my deepest issues. The hardest part of moving on was me having had lost hope.